Category Archives: love

You’re the Answer

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I’m so happy you came in my life. I know we are kinda starting over again and I’m loving it. Thank you for loving me even at days when don’t deserve it.

P.S. Can you at least remove them? I really don’t like seeing them every time we Skype/ FaceTime or Oovoo. I don’t know if you’re that insensitive enough not to notice that I hate it. :/

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SOS

I’m talking to him right now. I feel like I don’t know him anymore. And I’m quite sure he knows me no better too. I am afraid. What if this is it? What if this is the end? I want him to call me right now and say how much he loves me. If he does. I want him to be with me right now. I want to hug him to make up for the days I haven’t seen him. I want to smell his armpits. I surely miss doing all those.

When he asked me last night if there was even a time I thought of him for the past few days. I know I wasn’t able to express myself very much. I would’ve told you how all of a sudden I’d just remember you out of the blue even by just seeing ice cream or eating mangoes. I know I kinda don’t make sense anymore. I’m feeling sick. Physically and moreover emotionally. I need you now. I know you can’t really see this but.. if it’s possible.. I hope there will be a way for you to know what I feel right now.

I Have A Wish

I need to finish this paper but for now, I’m taking a break. He just told me a while ago he’s going with Anna to study. Is that all there’s to it? Well, I know we’re not in good terms. I know this has been an issue ever since and I seriously want this to stop. But how? I know she’s his bestfriend and all that. You can’t really blame me for being so sensitive about matter. How do you trust someone whole-heartedly? How will you know if that person is just fooling around? How do know if that person is serious about you?

We haven’t even had the  DTR (define the relationship) talk. Friends asking me what-we-are that gives me the chills. I believe that labels aren’t necessary. I believe the bond that both people have defines the relationship. But basing on how things are now? More than half of my heart tells my mind that I want him to ask me if I want to have that talk. Now I’m doubting his love because of this. And from the bottom of my heart I don’t want to doubt. I’d be fooling myself if I say that I’m not waiting. Waiting for him to say those words. Waiting for him to prove it to me right in front of my face that he’s willing to go through everything for as long as I’m by his side.

The past few days I’ve been distant to him. A part of me wishes he’d take the initiative of making things better that it is. I do not want to be in the situation I was back then. I don’t want to fall out of love.