Hi this is me, Gem. I am new to this thing so bear with me. I’ll do my very best to blog almost daily for I know it would help me in pouring out my emotions. At least here I wouldn’t mind to say what I truly feel. At least here beng honest isn’t such a big deal. At least here it’s quite impossible to hurt someone.
Today ended with a bang. I am so glad everything’s over now, well even just for a week. I am so glad we were able to present our Marketing Plan very well. And to top it all off, we got 98%. Going home wasn’t a waste after all. Oh and, I’ve got to have the best group mates ever. My classmates in Market1 are the best I’ve got other than my block mates.
But I can’t deny the fact that this 1-week break’s kinda ‘break’-ing my heart. I won’t get to see Don for days and that sucks. I feel like we’ve got a lot of catching up to do. I feel like I have missed a lot on him and so does he. I just hope things are still the same. I pray for the day to come that I’d be brave enough. I pray that I get that peace I’ve been longing for ever since. Maybe Ruby’s correct, or not. We’ll never know. The million dollar question is, “Does it ever cross his mind?” I do not want to make it sound like I got no thinking to do as well. What matters most for me now is consistency. I’m afraid of the what the future might bring. I’m afraid the feelings now wont be there tomorrow. I’m afraid to think that for example things don’t go well for us, I’d end up hating him.
I want him. I want him with all my heart. I’m just afraid what if he doesn’t. What ifs.. they will always be the death of me. As much as I don’t wanna think about it.. I can’t help but to think the reason why. Is it because the “love” isn’t enough yet? We haven’t even talked about ‘it’ ever. Are you willing to take the leap? Am I willing to take the leap?
I wanna be happy.. that will always and forever be my goal in life. I’m not afraid to say now that I wanna be happy with you. Do you feel the same way too? I really really hope you do. That’s all for now. Goodnight! xx