I need to finish this paper but for now, I’m taking a break. He just told me a while ago he’s going with Anna to study. Is that all there’s to it? Well, I know we’re not in good terms. I know this has been an issue ever since and I seriously want this to stop. But how? I know she’s his bestfriend and all that. You can’t really blame me for being so sensitive about matter. How do you trust someone whole-heartedly? How will you know if that person is just fooling around? How do know if that person is serious about you?
We haven’t even had the DTR (define the relationship) talk. Friends asking me what-we-are that gives me the chills. I believe that labels aren’t necessary. I believe the bond that both people have defines the relationship. But basing on how things are now? More than half of my heart tells my mind that I want him to ask me if I want to have that talk. Now I’m doubting his love because of this. And from the bottom of my heart I don’t want to doubt. I’d be fooling myself if I say that I’m not waiting. Waiting for him to say those words. Waiting for him to prove it to me right in front of my face that he’s willing to go through everything for as long as I’m by his side.
The past few days I’ve been distant to him. A part of me wishes he’d take the initiative of making things better that it is. I do not want to be in the situation I was back then. I don’t want to fall out of love.